Gemcap... Needing help with a relationship

by Christine
(Tobyhanna PA, USA)

First, of all, thanks you sooo much for visiting me! I've seen you all over the place in just the short time I've been active on this site! You are very clearly a wonderful influence and 'push' toward our big shift in this exciting new-age.

All my sincere thanks for your work, and I'm sure you are already basking in the glow of the rewards you are so graciously giving all of us! Your investments in time, work, and most of all genuine love are more appreciated than you or we can ever fully comprehend...

Right now I struggle with self-protection and grounding. While, I have studied psychic protection/creative visualization fairly extensively I still find this somewhat of a 'block.'

Seven years ago I was blessed with my second amazing teacher who helped release entity attachments of which I had no awareness. This catalyzed a very rapid transformation or, rather, re-awakening-a power and open love for every person I'd hardly known before and have barely, except in very tiny glimpses have experienced since. (He did tell me, 'Next time you will have to do it for yourself...,' foreshadowing the apparent fall from grace or battle with ego to which i was fated.

Now, unfortunately, I've entangled myself with a man who turned out to be on the side of black magic...While I intuitively knew he was dangerous I turned a blind eye to this (possibly in hopes of rescuing him or simply because he had me infatuated-a state, I believe many find themselves with him)...In the past weeks I have become stronger, however, I KNOW that his skill in manipulating certain energies and extreme attacks on levels not only astral but mental, emotional and possibly now physical prove difficult to guard against.

I do practice sending love/white light and prayer to Michael (with whom I feel a strong connection-that's another story), yet I'm wondering if there is something else or some other way I can FEEL more protected and completely FREE-not only from him but from the trappings of my mind and also possible attached or negative energies, entities, thoughtforms, etc...

When I find my way back to NOW, naturally this seems to be a cure, but this is also seems a struggle as my mind has so cleverly found many walls to hide behind so that I can feel stuck perpetually in a fog or daze.

I understand that this is a lot, but it seemed necessary to be pretty clear. Not sure if there's even much you can to this or if there is advice since intellectually I 'get' some of what I can 'do.' Yet, I cannot seem to snap out of either 'enchantments', my own self-made haze or other influences.

Naturally, take your time as I realize you're very busy. I'll be happy when/if you can respond, and if not,just stop by any time to simply say HI!

All my love, respect, and gratitude to such a beautiful and amazing person!

Christine