Help I'm really CONFUSED

by Omar
(Saudia)

Hello Dawn,
Thank you Dawn very much for making such oppurtunity possible. As my title shows I am confused. DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT. My papers are mixed up. My opinion about my self is not stable/ clear.

What I want contradicts what I believe in and what I think I am supposed to be. I came to you because you are a woman. I love women. I dont know why? Is that wrong? I like to speak with them. That occupies alot of my thinking. I enjoy watching prono. Every time I quit, I go back to it. It gives me some relaxation.


On the other hand, there is that special one I know and really like and wish deeply to go along with forever....but... I am not quite sure! Is it for sex or want that one. We have a distant relationship through emails. I knew her when I sat there in front of her as a student taking a short Spanish course in Argentina. I managed to have a dinner with her at the end of the course. I think she likes me? She describes our relation as a friendship. She once told me that when I wrote her a letter describing that night as something special to me. I tried to be romantic in that letter.


After she read the letter, she told me that she was overwhelmed by its content and the way I described what happened and how I think about her. Long after that, I sent her some photos about an advertisement of coffee. Unfortunately, at the end of that ad. there was a statement which reads "that is how my love to you". I did not mean any thing at all with that letter, afterwhich she described strongly this relationship as a friendship. It is OK, but from my side, I dont know if it is a friendship or not. But I try to maintain that relationship.


This distant relationship is now 2 years old. Frankly I hope for more. Dont know how to start for the more or which approach to take to reach to the conclusion I want. I am very optimisitic. I dont want to do something that will push her away. I dont want to lose her. On the other hand, cant continue as friends only.

I would greatly appreciate all your comments, guidance, opinion in this matter.
Wish you all the best.