Thank you for sharing, as I am sure there are many other people who are in similar situations.
I understand what you are saying about choosing medical problems. The word disease when you break it down is Dis Ease. That says a lot.
When we are sick something is not working correctly and often we need to look and see why we have a certain disease and how or if we are choosing to identify with it. Why it is in our life and what purpose is it serving.
The time I spent studying to be a Perfect Health Instructor with Deepak Chopra taught me a lot about how disease works and what I can do to prevent it. Once it is here then we can use the same brain that let the disease in to take it out and or speed up the healing process.
Along with following your doctors instructions you may want to use visualization techniques to aid in the healing process.
Everyone heals at a different rate. I truly believe and have experienced myself that my attitude towards my health or lack of it can make a significant difference in how soon I heal.
I suggest using Adam DreamHealers DVD Visualizations for self empowerment. In this DVD he shows you how to imagine the part of your body that needs healed. Adam takes you through a number of techniques that amazingly help you to heal yourself for a number of illnesses.
You can get it by clicking on the purple taps on the right of my web site use the Recommendations tab. My Recommendations page You will then click on my recommendations and it will take you to all the books and DVD's I recommend there you will find it.
Also check back in a few weeks as I will be adding new MP3's here on my site that I give free. (or for any donation) One of the series I haven't completed yet is a Healing MP3, that will guide you through a powerful process for healing your body. click here for my FREE Life Changing MP3S
In closing I would like to add, "Decide that you will be well and once you have done all you can, let it go." In other words don't identify with the disease by continuing to tell people you have it. When we do that it just reaffirms that we are sick.
Instead you can say I had such and such and it is healing as we speak, or it is healed.
If anyone else has overcome or is going through something similar please feel free to share your experiences here. It is important to get all perspectives and ideas.