I am willing to change

by Elizabeth
(Toronto)

I have lead a very difficult life from birth up to the present. Every time something good happens I am a fraid it won't last and always looking over my shoulder so to speak. Recently I have been seeking ways to change my life.

I have lost everything in the past year and a half. My home my family my savings really everything. My health took a very bad turn and I have a number of chronic conditions. I tried to be positive and found a part time job...approximately six weeks after getting the job I came down with another illness. I have been away from work for 2 weeks and going into the third. My thoughts are very negative as I am loaded with stress.

Afraid of losing my job which doesn't pay the rent but provides a little something I have to leave my current apt. and on and on...I try the affirmations daily at times they feel good and at times they feel futile like they will never work like nothing will work. I am fighting hard to feel positive and not worry all the time. I have read so much when it comes to affirmations that I am becoming confused with it all.

me say you don't have to believe them just start by saying them others say you must believe them! I am in a state of panic, fear and anxiety all the time. I didn't realize how much of me was being sucked away by the world until just recently and I know longer know who I once was. I know that I can't get that person back she's too far gone but...I want to recreate her in a happy more loving and self fulling way. I am willing to change... sometimes, many times I feel like I need a guide because the trust in myself has gone. I would like to regain trust in myself love myself, as I never have...be strong and positive and wealthy. I am willing to change...where do I begin? I am willing to change and I accept universal guidance now.

I am open to change and I accept universal guidance now. I am willing to change...show me in a way I can understand...I invite unlimited healing, prosperity, health, love, wealth into my life now!