Hi I would like to take this time to let you know that you must change your mindset and confession about yourself and your life. You are on a downward spiral because that is what you have programmed your self to believe about your situation. reminds me of the woman in the bible who had the issue of blood for eighteen years. but one day she came to the realization that she could do better, after consulting with all the physicians and they could not do her any good, and she had spend all she had to no avail. she put it in her mind if I could just touch the hem of his garment. You need to get the to the hem baby. There is nothing to hard for God to handle. It is not the end of life or hope for you. You don't have to stay in a dead end joy, you don't have to settle for a sex less marriage fix your self up and put the fire back in your marriage, you have not waited too late for your dreams, begin to write on that book on sentence at a time. God has you in mind and satan want to destroy you but your comment messed around and got in my eyesite and I send hope to you right now in the name of Jesus, I command you mindset to rise in the name of Jesus. Low self esteem I command you to loose this woman in Jesus name. Sister I command you to begin to do something that you thought you could not do. You are a masterpiece. Somebody needs what you have in your belly. You shall bring it forth. Feel free to visit my website at www.maxinehopkisministries.org. You are somebody. stand up and take your position. Join my organization S.T.O.P sisters taking our positions at gospelsalive.com click on groups and you will find it under maxine hopkins. I love you with the love of Christ. You shall overcome this. Lady Max