Hi! Thanks for sharing your question. Your dilemma is actually not that unusual. Everyone is physic to some degree.
Being physic is a talent/ability just like singing. Everyone can sing but not everyone does it well. As with any ability you can learn how to develop it with practice.
In your case it is going to be very important that you work on your self confidence. With any type of career path you choose in life if you don?t believe in yourself no else will either. I wrote a article called
?Simple self confidence tips that really work? I suggest you read that along with Louise Hay?s book "You Can Heal Your Life." She gives you a lot of action steps that you can start right away. I highly recommend this book, it fabulous.
Once you get your self confidence built up than you can and should move on to working on developing your physic abilities. You have to find your niche in this area. Reiki may not be what your really suited for. You may be more of a clairvoyant or a Clairaudient. My article on How to Develop your Intuition is a start in that direction.
There are many books you can read that will get you started as well as groups that you can join where other people like you are developing their physic skills. Look into Meetup.Com They have tons of metaphysical groups just put in your area. Many of them are free or very affordable.
Good luck and I hope this gives you the start you were looking for. Just remember we are never given a dream without being given the means to realize it.
I wish for you all the success and happiness the Universe has to offer.
