I have a huge blockage in my heart chakra

by Jessica
(USA)

I am trying to teach myself control of my emotions. They go up and down and all around all day long. For all sorts of reasons. I can't seem to have a calm, balanced day.

I have a huge blockage in my heart chakra, and I am trying to make it possible for myself to get through a child custody trial this summer with out going under emotionally like statistics show happens to many.

I have a solid case that just needs to be heard by a certain judge, with evidence provided. But I have to contain myself. I have to not cry and not get mad. Or even panic.

To top it, I don't have the greatest people skills. My brain is still trying to perceive all the what I called bad experiences into ones of more light and compassion.

Still certain things cause emotional triggers for me, especially dealing with my ex. Although, I send him and the judge and my daughter reiki and the light seems to be shining brighter in all directions.

To brief you up, he stole my baby from me at 8 months old, and has tried to keep her away from me (she is 5 now) and has gotten away with it so far and accuses me of being psychotic drug addict. No, I am not...nor does he have any evidence to provide on his accusation.

There are many more accusations and lies, and so forth, but that is the brief situation. So, I have spent the past few years trying to be in my daughters life and not being heard by the system due to paying lawyers for lack of services.

I am on my own completely with this at this point and i am almost ready to request a trial date to be set. But I am not so sure I am emotionally ready. Yet I need to be. Sooooonn!

So if you happen to know of anything that could help me learn how to control my emotions, please let me know. What I've been doing isn't quite enough. I am going through alot of releasing the past few months and at a rapid pace for I want the gunk to be gone with already. I am eager to reach my dreams.

I will talk to you soon,
Love and light to you sister!
Jessica