I have Many Blockages & Need Help With Forgiveness & Self Love- LifeCoach-Blog Question

by E.S.P.
(USA)

Until recently I thought forgiveness was a myth, until afew years ago I was certain love was. That was until I fell in love, the first person I was ever able to bond with, and the only person I ever plan of bonding with.


Then the very person who changed my life did something that ruined my life, and will ruin his (if it hasn't already).

I still love him, and I want to forgive him. This is something that's never happened before, either forgiveness nor any interest in forgiving.


I have always simply placed conditions on love and when someone broke them there was no second chance, and certainly no love left. Having not been able to forgive him yet nearly killed me about a year ago.

I have no memory of what self-love is like, if that's part of the answer. I've been using the one tool I have at my disposal which is subliminal messages burried in music in order to reporgram my thoughts while I listen to my favorite songs.

I happen to know that all of my chakras have some type of blockage in them, some of those blockages at a genetic level that I was just simply born with. Other's brought on by betrail, constant refusal of anyone to aknoweldge existing talent while still emotionally abusing me for existing flaws.

Still other's from medical situtations taking place when I was a child to young to be permitted to make my own choices. And that's just what I know about.

I need an answer that fits into my modern-day, always on the go, no time for things to go wrong life-style that doesn't cost anything.

The question I have actaully 2 fold.

How do I know when I have finally forgiven him?

And how to do I know when if I love myself once more?