I Need Forgiveness

by Jason
(California)

I cheated on my wife (we have three kids together) over six years ago. We divorced a couple years later after trying to stay together. Finally, I figured out that the guilt of what I had done to all our lives is simply killing me. I have been an absolute failure at everything I've attempted since then - relationships, jobs, finances, everything.

I have some sense of relief that now, I know what's been "holding me back". I had a discussion with my ex to ask her for forgiveness and/or ask if she's forgiven me. She has not. What can I do to break free from this tortuous guilt, and get back on track? I want (if only to set a better example for my kids) to be happy again....