I lost my son Caleb to suicide. He did not know or understand that it was forever. His family and friends would have done anything to help him, we all loved him so much - he didn't let us know he was suicidal. His pain bacame our pain, there are quite a few who almost followed him into suicide becuase of the pain.
GET HELP!!!! Call a suicide help line, talk to a good friend, ask someone to stay with you, take a hot bath, give it 24 hours and think again. Every day brings a new dawn - a new chance to start over, a new beginning. There is a solution to EVERY problem, you may not have the solution, but someone does, keep asking until you find it. SUICIDE IS NOT AN OPTION!!!!!!
Dec 08, 2008 Rating
Sarah - You see that many love you.... by: Anonymous
I am writing after two years worth of research about this topic and like Dawn and others, am first and foremost, concerned about your safety.
I will not share the name of my documentary because this is NOT a commercial pitch...I just wanted you to know that I am another who cares. I will only say that I have NO idea if you are on anti-psychotic medications for your bipolar, but I will only say that sometimes these meds do cause suicidal thoughts. If you are on these drugs do not stop using them before you get the expert advice of an MD, because this can cause an intensification of your symptoms.
I will pray for your wellness. . .and that you recognize that no matter how dark you may be feeling right now...that this too shall pass.
Please stay in communication, and take heart in the fact that so many people care for you.
May God bless you always,
Kevin
Dec 07, 2008 Rating
DON"T GIVE UP! THERE IS HELP! by: Anonymous
I myself suffer from depression and have beeen in treatment. I also know the depths of despair that one faces when all hope seems lost. Let me try to share with you this: Through years of therapy i finally realized when I get in a state of deep depression and have felt or feel as you do I want the pain to end. Very different then my life ending but if you look at, and this can be hard when down, what things will be like if and when this passes and if it is life due to life situation if and when you can change that how you will feel.
I new perspective a new outlook. You I hope know that Bi Polar disorder is chemical are you under a doctors care are you on prescription medications? Are you still taking your meds? If so you may need an adjustment. Pleas know there are people who have been there are there and understand. You have reached out for help which is a clear sign you want to live. Please call a hot line, call your doctor, therapist and psychiatrist!
Reach out to friends if they can't help keep reaching put till you get it. I know it's hard sometimes just getting out of bed is am accomplishment. Everything is harder but it will get better I promise you this. And know I may not know you but i understand and care. If that is any consultation you do have someone in your corner and on your side.
DON'T GIVE UP, PLEASE!PLEASE HOLD ON! REACH OUT! GET HELP! My heart is actually aching at the thought of the pain you are in! PLEASE LIVE! If it takes going into hospital for treatment please do it! HOLD ON! IT, ALTHOUGH IT MAY NOT SEEM LIKE IT NOW, GET BETTER!
Dec 07, 2008 Rating
Please seek help by: Anonymous
SarahJane,
Please seek immediate help...call 911 if you need to. I've been there myself. Don't do anything about it right now. You can decide tomorrow...but call someone now.
Jen Wojcik In Austin, TX
Dec 07, 2008 Rating
for Sarahjane by: Karen Murphy
((((((Sarahjane))))))
If you can leave an email address, IM, or even phone number I'll bet there are a lot of wonderful caring people who read this site who would talk to you. You've already reached out here, touching lives. You count. You exist. You are beautiful.
I can't comment on your situation because I don't know much about it, but you're in pain and that's enough. Here's a hand to hold. You're not alone.
Love, Karen Polarisrising.com (an easy way to reach me) or Twitter @lightspring.
Dec 07, 2008 Rating
If your feeling Lost or Suicidal by: Dawn Abraham
Hi Sarah Jane! I am really glad that you are taking the time to e-mail me. I under stand how it feels to not want to live anymore, I know how much pain you are in. Please listen to me; you need to talk to someone who can help you when you feel like this. Here is the hot line for suicide prevention: 1.800.SUICIDE (784-2433)
It is important to know that you are not alone. Plenty of people feel the way you do and Sarah and they get better. If you're not on medication then it would be a good idea to see a doctor and they can help you with that. If you on medication and it's not working then you want to call your doctor so he can change the medication.
It is also very important to get involved with a support group of other people who are bi-polar. That will make a huge difference. If you kill your self right now Sarah Jane you will be killing the wrong person. You said it yourself you are sick and you will not always feel this way. You will get better and then the real you will emerge.
I promise you there is plenty help out there so don't give up. If I would have given up when I felt like you, what a waste that would have been. I would not be able to help you now. Just like you will help someone else one day when they feel the same way. I couldn't have a better life and you can too. I did something about it and going through that changed my life for the better.
I can't tell you how many times I think how glad I am that I didn't kill myself or I would have missed so many truly wonderful experiences.
Call the suicide hot line first and then please e-mail me back here to let me know you are okay. I am very concerned for your welfare and I'm sure there would be a lot of people that would be devastated if you killed yourself. Let me know you are okay and your getting help.
I wish for you all the happiness the universe has to offer Sarah Jane you deserve it. Dawn
