Please universe help me to get healthy and reunite with my ex wife

(Colorado)

Due to addictions and not working I lost the love of my life and the most important relationship I have ever had. She was the one person who made everything else in the world trivial as long as we were together.

I took that too far and unfortunately took for granted that our marriage vows would be enough to keep us together. When you bring my ex wife back to me, my whole life will transform and my true essence will embrace the universe and all that is good. I will take that feeling and share it with everyone I am in contact with and repay the universe with constant good deeds and acts of kindness. I have always wanted this, but in the past I had drinking and depression issues and today before I submit my request I am too lost in myself and the sadness that came from my divorce.

I truly love this woman and while I understand the truthfulness in the "set your love free and it will return if it is meant to be" message I feel as though I was cheated by another powerful force but an evil one that kept my eyes closed for so long while I was suffering. Today I suffer more than I could have ever dreamed by losing my wife and I am asking for another chance with her as well as good health for myself so that I can be better than I ever dreamed when she returns.

Please God/universe, Kristi was the wind beneath my wings and when she returns I will be forever grateful and share with all people love, kindness and inspiration, especially her. Today I will let it go and have faith that this will be done. I am thankful beyond the stars for what you are going to do for me.