Purpose?

I've always felt this burning desire that I have a specific purpose in this world. I have had a few precognitions that turned out to be true, and I have deja vu on a daily basis.

I've been playing music for about 8 years. At one point, I felt like that was it. It was my purpose, and I should push it as far as I can. The fork in the road was where ego came into the picture. It complicated things with the group I was with, and it led me to over play, which resulted in Carpal Tunnel Syndrome.


I'm still creating music, but slower than I used to. I feel extremely compelled to create artwork that will help people see the oneness in the universe and in ourselves.

The problem enlies in my faith in humanity. I feel like almost no one will allow themselves to see a different side of things. Its like when something threatnes the ego, it fires back but much more feircely.

I guess the question comes to... meditation and self reflection. I try to trust my intuition, but sometimes it contradicts itself. What are some practices I can learn that will help me know myself better?