What do I do now? I am married to an alcoholic

by Shawna
(New Concord,KY, United States)

My problem is a long and odd one. I am married to an alcoholic and the only reason we stay married is to be able to both be here for the children.

I have 4 kids,13,12,5,and almost 1. I want to leave but am not sure where or how.


The main question has a little to do with the above. I feel as if I am trapped. I do not feel wanted or needed in my life.


I would love to be able to have a job or purpose in life that would make me feel as if I were wanted to be there and that I am making a difference in somebodies life.


I understand that my children do want and need me and that I do make all the difference in their lives. What I am talking about is different if that makes sense. I love helping people. I love the feeling I get when I can feel it coming from the person or people.

I live in a tiny town way out in the country with little to no neighbors. My husband doesn't make much money which means I cannot leave the house often due to the price of gas. Which leads to the feeling of being trapped.


I would go try to find a job but with the price of gas and my lack of experience a job for me is hard to come by. For the past 14 years I have mainly just been a housewife and a mom. I am only 33 years old and I can just feel this building up that I need to be somewhere else doing something better.


I am not exactly sure what I expect from sending this email but I had this urge to do this and could not shake it until I did.