When I read your story the one impression that keeps coming to me is that of your personal insecurity, of not feeling quite worthy. The way I see it, you can take a thousand educations, start a thousand projects but for as long as you don't truly recognize your worth, it won't get you where you want to be.
Money is part of that, as money truly is an expression of appreciation. For as long as you don't fully appreciate yourself as such you will keep on preventing money from flowing towards you. Your appreciation of yourself cannot be dependent on anything you do, on any of your many talents, on any of your visions of the future (or past).
In the end, genuine feelings of own worthiness must be unconditional. You are a wonderful being, to be appreciated simply because you are.
And, you cannot just decide that from now on you will appreciate yourself and love yourself unconditionally. The patterns that keep you in limitations have been created over many, many years. Depending on which path you choose, it doesn't have to take years to transform those patterns, but it does take transformational work. You will find your path when you're ready to go there.
If you want to learn about the path that worked for me (after trying just about everything else :-)) visit http://www.busting-loose.halinagold.net
Best wishes
Halina
Mar 20, 2008 Rating
What do you do? by: Dawn
Manuela,
Hi! I must say you certainly have done a lot in your life. I'm not sure if the issue for you is what do you do as much as how do I make money at something and love it at the same time.
I hear quite a few things going on with you. One of them seems to be your reluctance to commit or take on too much responsibility as you suggested.
It sounds like you have done quite a bit of exploring with things related to healing and helping people in some form or another. This is the path you would want to take in some form.
It seems to me that you may be struggling unnecessarily. At this point if you pick one of the many things that you know about and have started and spend some time focused on that you will notice that it can grow into a career that produces money.
If you jump around too much you will notice that you are not going to accumulate much. Every position in life has a growing period where you find your way.
Then you set goals and make plans and nurture it. It seems to me that every time you get to the part where you are going to let it grow you are on to something else.
Making money works the same way as growing a plant. It takes time and care and attention. If you give it attention it will grow faster but If you plant the seed and water it for a few months and then don't water it again or enough it will die. The same thing happens in a career path.
This is not only causing you confusion about what you do but it would defiantly slow down the process of making a good living at something.
You have a bright future and your many talents are going to help a lot of people Manuela don't be afraid to stop and enjoy something for awhile. You don't have to it forever.
Keep me posted.
Wishing all the success and happiness the Universe has to offer Love and Light Dawn Abraham
