where do i turn?

Dear Dawn i am in a bit of a muddle in my life & dont know where or what to do & ive had alot of difficult things in my life for being so young but i thing alot of it is down to my innerself.
It would seem that the path"s that i thought were right turned out not to be & i would like to be happy rather than depressed which has ruled me & my way of life so i guess that i am looking for advice if possible?

I have experianced some level of awareness but apparently im just not listening a exemple is my sister can hear & see my Guide & some thing"s are strong but i just cant seem to let my guide in & she is pissed at me.

only in the last 3week there has been a strange thing happening with a clock & i cant figure it out it goe"s round & round for a full 24hrs & stops bang dead on 16.04 but only the big hand moves & everything else is still, i dont understand the signifiance to this happening & i am worried.

The main problem i think is i need someone to show me how to find myself but i dont know who would do such a thing.

If this is a situation you might be able to address then i would much appreciate you help.
thanks for reading
C